Thursday, October 26, 2006

how goes the job search?

You can officially start asking me that question. I started my job search in earnest this evening, updating my resume and looking for positions online. I think I actually looked at about 700 this evening (and was qualified for only one--well, only one that made more than $10/hour, which is really a must at this point). The thing is, I have a good resume--if you're looking for someone to work for a non-profit, which, surprise surprise, nobody is!

December 24th will probably be my last day at Robertshaw Pies, which is something that makes me happy and incredibly teary-eyed all at the same time. I've worked there for seven years--seeing my wonderful boss every day, seeing the same regular customers every day. As much as I know I need to move on, it'll be so hard to let it go. And it's hard not knowing what's coming next--I always want to see what's around the next corner. I like having everything all planned out. But God seems to be bombarding me with change for the coming year--I know that my life will be completely different this time next year. I know I'll be so grateful for it once it's all done, and I know that, looking back, it will have been a good experience, but...well, I'll be glad that it's done, too!

So how do I know what to do? How many hours do I really need to work? How much money do I really need to make? How many hours can I actually work without either damaging my work at church or keeling over?

I suddenly remembered a phrase from this old Aaron Sorkin show called Sports Night. One of the characters is debating what to do, and he finally decides to "show up and see what happens". And as much as I want to control, well, everything, I think probably all I can do right now is show up and see what happens, and trust that someone else has it figured out.